Free Spirit
As time passes, my thoughts and time are moving towards building a sustainable business. My discussions with like-minded friends have lead me to consider who I am, my dreams, goals and motivations. I realized, not too long ago, that my dream was to take an entrepreneurial route to my career. I understand now that I need to put into my goals and values into words.
I do dream of making an important contribution to a cause that I believe in, but this is just a means to an end. The reasons I have for confronting the world delve into the realm of martyrdom.
I believe that I have a gift. A valuable and significant gift. I believe that this power I have within me cannot be realized without the opportunity. I have worked at several large companies. I have allowed others to manage both my time and my mind. To be honest, it felt great contributing to a team and given the occasional sensation that my effort was making a difference. It is a great feeling to be able to help another. This feeling is dear to me from my days as a ski coach. When you look into that fourteen year old’s eyes after a tough race, where they proved to themselves how amazing they really are, you get the warmest fuzzy feeling you could imagine. I have never felt so important, so significant, as I did in that moment. That said, if I were to devote my time to one of these large well-established companies, that would be the only time I would get that feeling. I would never get the satisfaction of knowing my strength had made a real societal impact.
Am I really this selfless? I have been known to put on a sarcastic, condescending or even disgusted face, but deep inside of me lurks this value. I am intensely frustrated by the endless amount of needless suffering this world endures. I am emotionally distressed by the thought that thousands of years of human advancement was lost when Rome was toppled by the barbarians. I cannot just watch the human race underachieve. I need to do whatever I can to improve the lives of current and future societies.
I have the passion. I embody the word ambition. I have confidence in every breath. I will fight every fight I reasonably believe that I can win, to the bitter end. I have an unfilled void in my life and I cannot sleep soundly until I can watch society realize its potential.
The pragmatist in me tells me that I am going to have problems in this role. I know that I cannot be perfect all the time. I am going to make mistakes. There are going to be decisions that I regret. There are going to times when I am not going to be able to find the right words. There are going to be times when I struggle with my shortcomings. I am worried that I will lose sight of the goal. It scares me to think that I might lose my ambition. I feel that as long as I stay true to myself and my values, I will be able to rise and overcome any challenges I may face. I also realize how cliche that sounds, but it is exactly how I feel.
I am going to experience many exicting times and many trying times. This experience is going to push me to all of my limits. I want this to be the most challenging and most rewarding time in my life. Above all, I want to be able to look back and know that I put all my effort into the most valuable cause I can think of. I want to know that I did the best I could. If I always stay true to myself, make the best decisions I can and give everything I have, I will never have regrets.
